Well, I see now that this one never posted this morning. The whole damn day. Goddamn it.
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I woke up this morning to the realization that yet again, I went to bed without posting. Why the sudden forgetting after more than a month of remembering? It’s weird. And then, still bleary, I saw an email letting me know that I’m not on the schedule to teach my workshop this summer. Since the university job is likely over, that’s another percentage points of income for the year, gone. I might get rescheduled for the fall, but that money was sorely needed before then. Of course it’s not the sponsoring org’s fault. I have no contract; they owe me nothing. But, one wishes, sometimes, to be treated as slightly more than a line item sometimes. Especially one who tried so hard to be an even better instructor than before! Literally having no impact on my life here in month two is, well look, I’ve already bawled enough today so as they say: IT IS WHAT IT IS!