It’s raining and the cold is coming back, and just when I’ve gotten pots to transplant all my sprouts into, too! It’s also cold and raining on my grand plan to be better at mindfulness than I was last year.
My brain is fighting mindfulness the most, and this month I’m really seeing all the ways I’ve lost my concentration, focus, and organizational skills in the last…two years? To what, I don’t know. It’s like a word you can’t think of, but you know exists. I used to get things done, regularly! While I really want to keep this experiment up, I don’t know how when I am having such a tough time staying on track with my mini-goals. It is so easy to get distracted, and now with people deleting FB, I’m wondering if it’s time to do that, to take that decisive step.
I have to keep in mind that the first two weeks of March came in like a lion, all resolve and spark. It’s just the last week, and while it is easy to spin out a narrative of failure (for good) from that, it is not realistic. I’ll try again tomorrow. And tomorrow, I have just as good of a chance at meeting my goals for the day as I did today. For now, I will go to sleep focusing on the rain on the high roof.