So this month has really shown me that time management remains one of my biggest hurdles. So for April, I am going to try and follow a schedule M-F, as I am able (there will be some travel, so I’ll have to be flexible there). I’ve sketched out the schedule and have a dry-erase board on the way that I can use to record my schedule and cross shit off as I do it.
I’ve also got some key self-care things to try and accomplish, including a couple of healthcare related visits and a pedicure (haven’t had one since I lived in Phoenix, which is 7 months ago, now and they are a luxury, but also a grounding). As part of the self care and scheduling, I’m going to list out some short and long term goals, too. Everything is so amorphous right now. I have no work schedule and my days are weird amalgams of tasks and unproductive downtime. It’s not good for me or for my creative output. Here’s to being better at it this year.
Today’s meditation was so cheesy it made it very hard to focus. It was an Australian woman basically saying ‘let go’ over and over, and all I could think about was all the things in the world that were more urgent and important than me and my smartphone meditation app. I pictured the woman as Gwyneth Paltrow, and I kept wanting to say to her, ‘just because it doesn’t serve me, doesn’t mean it isn’t valuable!’ or, ‘the past informs the present–I can’t just release it like a balloon!’ But still, I sat and breathed. That’s better than not doing either of those things, or so the science tells me.